Some Kind Of Scary/Wonderful

I have racked my brain over and over for the past week on what I should make my first blog post about, and when I say first, I don’t mean first here on this particular site. I mean first in my whole entire life! You know when your brain is just going 100 miles a minute, you have 50 ideas running through but are spending so much fragmented time on each one that they all start to seem silly and nothing makes sense?? Yeah, that’s me.  So I thought I would start with the truth…

I am scared.

I am scared of the unknown. I am scared of failing. I am scared of putting myself out there and people not liking me (I realize not everyone will)Scared of people not being interested in what I have to say or the things that interest me, and  I am scared of letting down the woman that took a risk on me and put me in this scary/wonderful position.

Fear is a terrible thing. Regret even worse. I know for me anyways, that there are a few things I have missed out on in my life because I was too scared to try, I would either figure out a reason to justify why it wasn’t for me, or just keep telling myself- tomorrow, tomorrow I will do it. But tomorrow would pass, more days would pass… and I never tried.

So, I’m gonna try!  9 times out of 10 things never go as badly as we think they are going to go. And that feeling of getting it done, of succeeding, is just the best thing ever. The worst thing that will happen is I fail. And so what? Its not the end of the world.  I pick up and move on. Learn a lesson and become wiser for trying. The worst thing, would be to look back and think, man I really should have done that and I didn’t.

In life we try many things, sometimes we fail and wish we could stop the clock, back up and make a different choice.  Sometimes we succeed and wish we could relive those moments a million times over. All of these things, whether bad or good, make us who we are today. And bring us to where we are today. So we must live, makes mistake, make wonderful memories and not second guess every decision. Take risks and make changes. You can never go back and have a do over, but you can certainly start making the right steps to a happier ending.  If you always wait, to do everything until you think it’s the perfect time, you probably won’t end up doing much at all.

I hope you stick around and like what you see. I know that I have a big pair of shoes to fill. I am no pink ninja….. actually my favorite color is purple and I have zero ninja abilities…lol.